meaningful words of wisdom

Saturday, August 18, 2007

dear peanutez,

hmm i just remb that at one point of time, i saw a somebody insult a friend via Friendster.. and this makes me wonder how he/she has become like that..

maybe becos of the..

stead??

ah well.
okae, better shuddap abt it now else i'll be flooded w negative comments agn LOLZ.

~

aahh my english is purr-fect X)
*smacks lips*

lolz.

~
from zhuangi's blog. i think it's super meaningful. and true.. mostly..
pink are my comments. [ the first comments after each statement ]
purple are her comments.

When you catch a girl glancing at you
She wants you to look back and smile
- not really. i cud just be checking if the fly is still annoying my dearie lolz -
[not really. will be a bonus if you do though]

When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you,
She wants you to hold her hand
- kinda. but usually the bumpin part is accidental lolz. i'll just grab my dearie's hand if i wana hold it. hehe -
[i guess so... i'll definitely be happy about it]

When she wants a hug
She will just stand there
- i guess so. but usually i'll demand/ask for for a hug. haha -
[erm... not neccessarily, cuz i stand around all the time]

When u break a girls heart
She still feels it when You run into each other 3 years later
- yes yes yes -
[yes]

When a girl is quiet
million things are running thru her mind.
- yes yes. but it doesnt necessarily mean im stoning. and it cud also be bcos im tired -
[sometimes. no, most of the time. heh. this is self-entertainment]

When a girl is not arguing
She is thinking deeply.
- i suppose. either tt or i cant be bothered, or im preparing for a full blast or argumt lolz -
[not only that. i'll be thinking about it, and thinking how futile it is to argue, that's why i'm quiet. but yes, definitely indignant inside]

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions
She is wondering how long you will be around.
- i guess so. or i'll be wondering why the heck is my bf so cute =x -
[doesn't happen to me. i'm more of.. treasure the moment. not think ahead.]

When a girl answers, "I'm fine,"after a few seconds
She is not at all fine
- yea i guess so. but i dont do tt. if im not fine i'll say im not fine lolz -
[yes. sigh. not fine at all, and dwelling on it by myself]

When a girl stares at you
She is wondering why you are playing games
- nah my bf doesn play games. i'll prob just stare at him cos he jus said something lame hehehe -
[playing games? literally? or... no haven't happen to me. yet.]

When a girl lays her head on your chest
She is wishing for you to be hers forever
- no im just tired lolz. or bored. or craving for a lil hug -
[there and then. yes. but i know it's not easy. forever is... very long.]

When a girl says she can't live without you
She has made up her mind that you are her future
- wa biang. i'll never say tt to any guy. i can live anywhere, anytime, anyhow XD i think -
[WOAH. i dont dare to think like that]

When a girl says, "I miss you,"
No one in this world can miss you more than that.
- granted. i shall not compete with the mother-in-law lolz. -
[hard to say. i might have rivals. but i dont care.]

When a girl is mean to you after a break-up
She wants you back
- YESSSSSSS. i guess so.. .. .. but usually i end up being ultra nice. aargh. -
[ this i dont know. but i think i'll be nice...]

But she's scared she'll get hurt and knows
You're gone forever.
- yes. so my dearie, pls do say i love u constantly and give me all the affectionate hugs. =\ -
[this is sad. but i'll face it.]

ta daa!!!

sooo meaningful la!!!
nxt time i shall create something similar from myself.

okae,
gtg do hmwk now.

love ya LOTS PEEPS.

love my dearie lots.

oh ya, hope my printer fixes by itself soon so tt i can scan all the neoprints in!!
includin the mega-sweet ones i took with my dearie.
*drools*

and oh ya.
after hearing all the contestants at westzone superstar sing.. and cheerin esp for my fellow jj-mates..

i realise i really miss singing too.

havent sung for a long time since the last time i had cough and sorethroat.

i really really miss singing.
=\

love,
siewps`

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happy and touched

Friday, August 17, 2007

dear peanutez,

whoots there was dance performance at Singapore Poly Convention Centre todae.
and i perfomed in it.

AND WE DID IT!!!!!

aaaahhHHHH
no mistakes, no nothing =D

im so proud of myself.
luckily my top didnt come off lolz. we were all worried tt our tops might drop a lil.. and.. u know what next. but thankfullly it didnt.
halfway thru the dance, i was praying in my head, " dear God, pls dun let my top drop." Lolz.
and it didnt.

haha.

and i think i was incredibly fabulous. at some points in time. =\
haha.

and when i saw my dad b4 tt at the convention centre lookin out for me, my heart throbbed and i was super touched.

i was still a lil unfamiliar w the steps ysd but today i totally got it.
and im so proud of myself.
cudn be prouder.
haha.

cos i think i did okae=] hehe.

so tired.
a bz week..

*sighs in relief*

oh ya.
anws, here's a pic i took with a dancemate, isabella..
i think it's rly nice. hehe.

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and here's another..

haha.

whoo!!

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ysd,
zhuangi and rammie and i hung out together after sch.
long time no see zhuangi, and when we talked and the conversation topics just flowed like water, with not many pauses in between,
i find tt gosh,

i really do miss her.

a LOT.

i think she's going to be my best friend forever.
because we really have the mental telepathy.

here's a pic of her with me. taken at jp lib [ cos rammie wanted to go ] toilet. haha.

this is my dearest, darling bestie, and i miss her like hell.

i miss her so much cos she's in SP while im in JJC that i feel terribly sad tt i seem to have lost her tho i have not, sometimes.

but i know she's always there.
just like my other best friends. =] and good friends.. and my bf.

~

now tt dance is over, i feel a sense of fulfilment and a sense of loss..

and i think im coming down with flu [ got caught badly in the rain this morn ] and a slight fever..

and no matter what,
i think i love my life.

and im utterly touched tt my efforts at dance paid off.
and tt my dad came to watch the performance.

loving,
siewps`

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happy.. And sad maybe

Thursday, August 16, 2007

dear peanutez,

after seeing this:

friendster horoscope = You can expect a very fun day today, full of silliness and laughter galore. Take time to enjoy yourself, and put aside any serious work for a while if you can. Opt for enjoying social time instead of engaging in study time, and you'll stay energized and smiling all day. It's not that your workload isn't enjoyable -- it's just that you need to engage your fun side more than your studious side right now. It's way overdue for a serious workout!

i think i shall stay out a lil more instead of gg home to sleep.

hahaha.

whoots.

oh ya.
i keep thinking abt the break up incident btwn T and N.

sigh.
really dun understand how just so tt bcos of different races, ppl cnt last in their rls.

i seriously and really really believe in true love.
and i dun understand how he cud like.. not sit with her and frens anymore right after the break up, and appear so nonchalent abt the whole incident.

why are guys like that?
*sigh*

a bit sad to hear it.

like, they've been tog for abt 3 years i think.. then decided to brk up cos of racial issues. it's diff to marry into a muslim family.. i understand..

but i think true love surpasses anything and everything.
call me childish or something,

but i ernestly believe tt true love can overcome any obstacle.

i know in a r/s, there wont be without quarrels.
but with quarrels, there comes a deeper understanding btwn two ppl.
with laughter there comes more bonding too.
and affinity of knowing each other plays a part too..

so..

i mean, they're broken up now.

but i feel so horribly sad for them.
they dont even talk much.

yes
yes, i know it's none of my business.. ..

i just cant help but feel sad for them.

such tt i have to blog it out.

anws, gg out now!!!!!!

will update later.
toodles~

love,
siewps

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sleepyhead

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

dear peanutez,

whoots im absolutely.. worned out.
like a dead cloud.
a dehydrated sponge.
a blanket floating in the sea..

im so gg to slp after i blog [ 1033 pm now ] .

*cries out loud*

TIRED TIRED TIRED!!!

my mind is screaming, telling me to hibernate for 2 days in a row. bahh, but of cos cannot. got school =.=

plus, there's dance performance on fri.
speaking of dance performance,

im really worried!!! !!! !!!

deep down in my heart, i know im a good dancer.
because sometimes when i look at myself in the reflection, im like, hey, not bad =]

but i lack SELF CONFIDENCE SELF CONFIDENCE SELF CONFIDENCE.

really, i dont look like it,
but i utterly feel so insecure of myself.

dont see me as being attitude or certain days. on certain days, i feel ultra-mega good about myself.
mostly i feel average.
other days, i pretend..

aaahhh.

im really fearful of screwing up. i more or less am familiar w the dance steps but im not ALL THAT familiar.

self confidence self confidence.

i wish there was just some kind of drink whereby after u drink it, u become utterly confident and good looking =\

whoo.

BRINGG ME MAHH CONFIDENCE POTION PLEASEEEE.

~

*goes to slp*

love,
siewps`

You Are a Good Student of Men

You're pretty good at knowing what men are thinkingBut you're not dead on 100% of the timeLet your guy off the hook sometimes... because you may be reading him all wrong!

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lalala

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

dear peanutez,

whoo im so happy today.

thankeu to the following ppl for their bdae gifts/ wishes:

Benjamin
Bryant
Michelle from A01
Kathy
Michelle from Fuhua
Christopher
Miao Chen
Priscilla
Linda
Shasha
Wan Qing
Sainiran
Shin
Sheng Tat
Ernie
Jerry
Jing Quan
Liying
my sister=.=
Sean

the dancemates who sung the bdae song for me="

other classmates from A02 like Hema and le ling..

=\

special thanks to:

my dearie for the
Yummy Yummy Yummy Japanese meal..

okae here's proof of his ultra-cuteness =p

he was super super nice la!!

he helped my break open my chopsticks lolz.
sent me home.
let me eat first when his meal hasnt come =\
oh, and previously bought chocs for me too!!

im sooooo utterly flattered =d

thankeu thankeu thankeu

haha. didnt wan to look at me cos i was taking a pic of him =\

whoots~

and also,
special thanks to zhuangi, vickie and cherie darling,
for staying up specially [ or not =\ ] to wish my happy bdae at 1200am..
and Cherie for her special card made for me,
zhuangi for staying up just to wish me happy bdae on the spot,
and Vic for the 3 gifts..

and my darling godbro from Aussie,
Matthew Chan,
for calling me at 630am in the morn jus to wish me happy bdae!!

YAYYYY!!

haha.

and,

i DIDNT FAIL ECONS!!
WOWWWWWWW.

hahahahaha.

~

okae,
im super tired now.
gotta do a bit of project work stuff..

looking at the gigantic and ultra humongous bruises on both my knees..
i think it's permanent =\

patting my filled stomach with quality dinner [ sponsored by my dearest ever.. ]

i think im relatively blissful.

sorry if i missed out anyone.
hehehe.

love,
siewps`

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hmm

Monday, August 13, 2007

dear peanutez,

well, i guess it won't hurt if i decide to hold off the abandoning of my blog for a while..

EEHH I GOT SO MANY FRIENDS' SUPPORT!!.
lolz.

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thanks for my early pressie, dearie!!
i love it lots and lots =p

and i love gg out to vivo with u ysd cos u're really such a fun companion.
pity u cudn take off ur shoes so tt we cud go play in the water together.

hehehe haha.
[ i'd have splashed water at u =\ =\ and ran away ]

oh well,
there's always a next time!!
HOR!!!

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i was reading past entries of Ray and my blog.
readin past entries are FUNN.

then i was readin abt the time i hinted of my liking for him.
and now we're together.

i seriously am so blissful.

i'll definitely treasure him the best i can.

~

oh ya.
and i remb he asked me who i liked, so that he cud "help" me with it.
haha.
and that's so funny, bcos that time, i was feeling frustrated and pissed at myself for not daring to tell him that it was him i like.

LOLZ.

and ppl ard me were trying to help me, i think.

and ppl ard me kept teasing me like crazy, and teasing him too, after that.

haha.
tt's so funny.
but utterly embarrassin and humiliating.

and i remb the time when he first held my hand. Lolz.
ultra cute.

shall nt mention it here..

and so, it's such a wonderful fairytale story.
hehe.

~

i haven't said this for a long time..
but,
may everything turn out all right and well eventually.

and,
i love my life.

i find tt no matter what kind of things happen, nasty or happy,
i think all in all, i still love my life.

i love my life.
i love my dearie.
i love my friends.

~

okae it's 1031pm and i just reached hm..
decided to blog a lil and go slp after tt and do my hmwk tmr during the 2hrs break..

jus now i returned to sch for dance prac.
i wonder if it was an wise choice or a regret.

after enduring 2 newfound blueblacks on both my knees bcos of all the kneeling actions and bla,
i realise tmr we still have dance practise. much to my horror.

i can't say i ain't expecting anything for my bdae. i expected just a little, to be a little free-er from previous years.
previous years, i celebrated my bdae with O lvl english oral, or common tests, or CAs .

and i was looking forward to a free-er time this year, when i can spend time with my dearie.
wanted to go eat some nice food at bugis.

guess it aint possible anymore.
dance is until 630/6++ pm [ quite late. so cannot go far.. ]

and i can't say i wasn't sad.
with my back faced to the tcher as i walked towards my bag,
i cried.
just a silent, 30second tear-fall-on-my-cheeks cry.

and then i wiped it off, took my bag and left for dance [ cos it was over anyway ] .

i guess this is fate.

shud never have expected anything out of my birthday anyway.
and it was a big fault on my part to have expected even that little bit.

~

on a happier sounding note,
we were shaking our butts in one part of dance todae..
lolz.

shasha had no butt to shake.
and we were all laughing at her[ not wickedly. just laughing ] and the tcher was a meanie =x she said " put padding" lolz.

LOLZ how mean!!

cos sha2 didn know how to shake her butt. hehe.

~

do i love my life now?
cant help but feel a bit sad. sigh.

and wad a bz day tmr. sch till 430pm. dance till 6/630pm.
come home still must study for test on wed.

i guess bdae is not such a big deal after all.

i shud jus celebrate my deathdate.
*oops*
cannot anyhow talk.
now is hungry ghost festival..

Be careful whenever u walk in public.. u wudn wan to anyhow step on stuff..

nothing special is going to happen tmr.
im just going to cry on my bed tonight for my miserable, pathetic life. =(
and ask myself why my birthday falls in the middle of the year with no hols and full of tests and exams.. .. ..

LIKE REAL.

im gonna snooze on my bed.
and drool on the pillow,
and occasionally shout out Ray's name..

LOLZ.

KIDDINGGGGGGGG!!!

love-less,
siewps

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sad?

Saturday, August 11, 2007

dear peanutez,

i may be abandoning my blog soon.

not bcos ppl dun read it- a lot of ppl do and im so proud of it/ myself,

but bcos the feelings i face, the issues i long to talk abt, are so complicated and literature-y,

and is sometimes not agreed by everyone and henceforth being so controversial tt ppl wan to tag nasty things..

that i feel that well,

maybe i shud abandon my blog.

and pen all my thoughts and feelings in my diary.

yes,

i've got numerous friends..

and a cute-looking and understanding bf.. ..

but sometimes,
things go wrong.

and spoil my mood.

and hurt my feelings.

so well..
mayb i shall abandon it soon.

in case i do,

i'd like to thank all the nice ppl/ my fans [ lolz ] for consistently [ or not ] reading my blog.
cos it means tt u care about me. [ either that or u cant wait to pounce on me to say nasty stuff ]

that u want to know how i feel each day.

but everyday,
i feel so jumpy.
i have my ups and downs.

cos of heavy family issues.. and sometimes, friends-issue [ that's occasionally ]

so i'd like to say,
thankeu to those who've been my close friend and always supportin me and readin my blog.

u rock.

~

love,
siewps

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sad?

Saturday, August 11, 2007

dear peanutez,

as much as i dont look like it today,
i feel extremely sad and disappointed.

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Saturday, August 18, 2007

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happy and touched

Friday, August 17, 2007

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happy.. And sad maybe

Thursday, August 16, 2007

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sleepyhead

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

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lalala

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

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hmm

Monday, August 13, 2007

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sad?

Saturday, August 11, 2007

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sad?

Saturday, August 11, 2007

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